"Eh," Ajahn Chah would peer at me when I was
having a hard time, "caught in some state again?"
In the forest monastery we were constantly being
directed both to look at consciousness itself and
to precisely name the states that rose to fill it
throughout the day: frightened, bored, relaxed,
confused, resentful, calm, frustrated, and so forth.
Ajahn Chah would sometimes ask us out loud about
our states so that we could acknowledge them more
clearly. To a recently divorced monk from Bangkok
he chided, "Is there sadness? Anger? Self-pity?
Hey, these are natural. Look at them all." And to
a confused English monk he laughed, "Can you see
what is happening? There is distraction, confusion,
being in a muddle. They're only mind states, you
know. Come on. Do you believe your mind states?
Are you trapped by them?You'll suffer for sure."
Once we became more skilled at noticing, he would
up the ante. He would deliberately make things
difficult and watch what happened. In the hottest
season, he would send us out barefoot to collect
alms food on a ten-mile round trip, and smile at
us when we came back to see if we were frustrated
or discouraged. He'd have us sit up all night
long for endless teachings, without any break,
and check in on us cheerfully at four in the
morning. When we got annoyed, he'd ask, "Are you
angry?Whose fault is that?"
In popular Western culture we are taught that the
way to achieve happiness is to change our external
environment to fit our wishes. But this strategy
doesn't work. In every life, pleasure and pain,
gain and loss, praise and blame keep showing up,
no matter how hard we struggle to have only pleasure,
gain, and praise. Buddhist psychology offers a
different approach to happiness, teaching that
states of consciousness are far more crucial than
outer circumstances.
~ Jack Kornfield
Excerpt from 'The Wise Heart'
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