Art Ticknor
Why Do You
Richard Rose organized a winter intensive in 1979-80, and in one of
the sessions he posed some rhetorical questions for consideration,
which I made notes of. One set of questions was the following:
* Why do you study, or why do you work?
* Why do you pursue whatever you're pursuing so actively?
* To get a better job? To get a better mate? To get a better
position besides just food and shelter?
* Is this a pursuit of wanting fantasy that will beget fantasy,
and fantasy again that will beget agony?
* Or do you study or work to buy a better house, so that the house
will own you, and then this house will stand to constantly remind you
that you are locked in space and time....?
Are you acting out the script to a play you didn't write? Sleepwalking
through life -- a life that's like a puppet show?
It doesn't make much difference how alert you think you are. You can
vipassana or zazen until the proverbial cows come home -- without
awakening. Spiritual action involves turning the attention around,
letting go of the fantasies.
Rose was pointing to the reversed focus of spiritual action in the
opening lines of his blank verse poem "The Mirror": Who is it that
speaks to you? Who is it that listens to me? Rumi was indicating the
same direction in "Table Talk": Who says words with my mouth? Who
looks out with my eyes? If you could let those questions get past the
ego defenses, they could trigger the doubt sensation that announces
the opening of the door to looking -- and the possibility of awakening
from the sleep of merely believing.
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